My horoscope for today (not that I think. I've never believed and I've never read the horoscopes. But when life's falling apart, sometimes, you only have the stars):
Love
E 'castles in the air or useless to hope too much. On the front you must adjust the emotional pull and resize your dreams.
Hope too ... Resize the dreams ... This
Yes I had understood.
Last night I had a moment of happiness when I saw his name appear on my phone. But last night, despite the time, attacked me in some way. And there is nothing in his voice that reveals LOVE.
He responded to my mail. I had written that I love, I love him to death. What I do not claim anything, but I can not erase the love I feel for him.
And his answer was as follows:
You are not ridiculous. I never thought of.
One thing is' certain to live his life with sincerity ', especially to themselves,' the only way possible. I even understand myself.
The only thing of which I am pleased and 'your serenity'. Slowly I'm re-conquering.
I love you. Really.
A big hug,
Game
Living life with sincerity ... Perhaps he means to admit, if itself and then with others, who loves her. Who wants to be with her. That the dreams every night. That the heart beats fast when they see it. Die when you hear the call. Perhaps this is the sincerity that is looking for. It will be the next step, after she left. After I "yelled" that do not love me anymore. As I walked away a little step at a time, step by step.
I expect terrible days. The worst is yet to come. And as I write I have palpitations. I feel like dying. I do not care anything. I would not do anything. Just stay lying down and think about the two of them together. Imagine that while he thinks of her work and the thought filled him with tenderness.
I pray to God, I hope, I hope, dream ... to find the strength to face this other step. I would like to live, not just survive. And instead, I feel that I am succumbing. Slowly. And pretending to still be alive.
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