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Saturn ... That not even know who he is Saturn. And not even know what it means to have Saturn in Opposition. My mother says I was born in a day saturnine. And that is bad to be born in one day saturnine. Ok. I believe her. But I do not know what it means and then go straight to my street, head held high, convinced that I will be done good and not evil. As in that book ... As Simone Wiel said in that book that changed my life. And will not be long one year. That all changed as he was to return. And now he is with me, as the first in a new way. And I ... I am strong. And I am not afraid. And sometimes, when through the park alone at night with my bike, I would throw myself on a lawn to test your luck and wait for events to happen. I
strong ... Thinking of that sweet boy who saved my life. Found, and had lost. Lost twice. The second to realize that we never belonged except for those fleeting moments of the nights of May. When everything was crazy and I hung up circling in the clear sky in a balloon in New York.
But this is a delusion. And my life is now normal, normal again. I wanted. Like a dream I last year. What is inside? Force. And the awareness that happiness lasts for a moment. And the rest can be pain. Or serenity. I have the peace of mind. The happiness which has nothing rational and understandable, is hanging on to the balloon to circle the clear sky of New York. As in the dream.
dreams And there were many.
dreams real. Dreams of the night. Dreams of spring.
Listening songs. His songs. And my songs. His message might be. Mine are just a game.
The music sometimes I have it inside. Other times, it sounds muted. And it's not hear that makes me feel alive.
speak with short messages. SMS thoughts. Hoping that someone understands.
But in the end what matter who you know?
I just want to meet him again. But I do not know if after all that I went through after I got what I wanted, I do not know if I can still ask something.
And Cats closed the books are silent. For weeks and months. You can not always expect. Sometimes you just have to quiet down. And wait. What makes his life around. Sooner or later it will come back again. It will be sorrow and happiness.
But for now ... I must have enough happiness!
This is for Duck. And the reindeer Apple Peel.